Keep Moving...

     Transitions are always an odd time. When the world around you begins to change and your mind is forced inward, looking for something to hold on to and yet every piece of the identity you've carved for yourself becomes transient. It feels like you become a ghost of yourself while desperately trying to grab your own hand in the mirror. No matter how hard you try that damn glass will stop you every single time.

      When life throws you to the next chapter it opens up parts of us that we like to ignore. The parts that are sore when exposed to the light, the parts that we had hoped we'd buried deep enough that they wouldn't be a problem anymore, and then the sands of circumstance shift and suddenly an entire city of memories and ideas about ourselves come rising up from the ground. It makes us vulnerable, lonely and emotional. And we lash out trying so hard to find some piece of what we thought we knew to hold on to.

     In the end we're all ships lost at sea with waters too deep and too rough for our anchors to do us any good. So instead we drift on hope, looking for the winds of change to carry us to better waters. But these winds aren't always gentle or easy, at times it can feel more like a storm of change. The waters rise up and try to force us to capsize, then drag us underneath in a deadly embrace. That's when we reach out, we try to find another ship on the terrifying ocean of life, someone to lash our ship to to that we can stay afloat together.

     When transitions come it can be hard to hold on to yourself, but we try anyways. Some of these changes can be a good thing, but when you keep bouncing around you can lose sight of yourself and become something entirely different. You become the storm, the ghost in the mirror. You become like the wind that forces up the sands, unable to settle anywhere because you have become so used to drifting that you have to keep moving. Without something to anchor ourselves to we become lost in a state of change and the storms never seem to cease.

     Take refuge in the Lord, He is a safe harbor where the storms don't seem so bad, and yet even in His refuge the world will evolve and change and it can be a strangely lonely place. It isn't a bad lonely, but taking refuge in Him is meant to be done with others around you, to help keep your heart focused on Him...